分了,骗了，忘了吧

18th JAN 09,08:30pm,
i break with my love 1,
our relation start from 7th JULY 08,
already half year with him,
we stay together 4 month already,
when he move out, i know we will break up shortly.

I know he not a good guy,
when he stay with me he having sex with others guy more then 10 times in 3 month..
(including my friend,housemate and my ex)
i also forgive him, but so coincidence is every time after he make love with the guys,i also got friend tell me the truth.
so every time i also know..
he always cheat me, i hate people cheat me..
after that i won't trust him anymore.

But with him i feel like don't have a sense of security.
couse he like sex more then love.
just want to top people only.. sex,sex and sex..
i break with him couse i have no feel with him already..
we less contact,1 week meet once time,nothing can chat with him anymore.
sorry.. i feel like alone.. like nobody care about me..
every time he said he love me,but i don't feel he does..

Today he came tangs find me, after that i just send a message said want to break with him,he didn't reply my message.
very funny is he said he came here with girls..
but my friend seen him with group of guy(p).
he cheat me again..

Why he always make me sad..
who i can trust anyway.?
parent? friend ? ex-bf?
or nobody can trust in my world..
they all also cheat me....

why cannot said truth??